been out n BACK~

yes, i'm finally back to using this blog. been ignorant for the past few months. no, i've always been an ignorant kind of person, its no wonder no one really does care about me. i'm sorry that i'm like this. i'm born this way, u'll have to cope with me. if u feel my coldness, well yes, i'm losing interest. i have what they say "three minutes heat". that's exactly what describes me. i don't really care about what's happening around me. as long as it doesn't affect me directly. if u know me long enough, i'm guessing u might feel that about me although u might not know it yourself. i know how i really am. i'm ignorant of my surroundings. i can be interested in one thing and then lose the interest about it after sometime. it may be for a really short period of time or it might be for long. well consider as long to me. like for example, even to people, i can be like that. maybe its just me being tired of someone or something that they did, maybe its really its because of what they did... i losing the heat of the topic and then they started to ignore me and forget about me as time goes by. well, to be exact, in this case, i'm just beside them for God's sake... ok, maybe its just because of me losing interest in what u all do n didn't really give a damn of what u say and did not give much reaction. but thats not the first time u all ignore and forget about me... well, this is not the first time, maybe i'll really gt used to all of these eventually after all. maybe i just need some time to myself n hole up a bit n finally feeling bored to the extent that i have interest then maybe i'll react more n then they'll finally notice that I'M ACTUALLY HERE LISTENING TO WHAT U'RE SAYING N DON'T THINK OF ME AS AIR!!

 all right think of the above as a random rant... been a bit moody and down and sensitive these days. maybe its just me being too sensitive. ignore all of the above. well, i am ignorant in the first place. i couldn't care less about how u think of me!