on nights i cant SLEEP

What do u do on nights u cant sleep? counting sheeps? play ur phone? just keep ur eyes shut n wait till u reallt sleep? get up n do something tiring? read books? well, for now apparently i'm blogging! coz its too mainstream to blog during any other day! how i wish theres no lectures on monday mornings! It's just torturing! Monday blues are everywhere! Right, i'm gonna write till i'm sleepy n everything will be quite gibberish n blabbering. If its not making sense bcoz i am writing whatever i thought of so lets not make that brain even more active aye whatchasay mates? Ok i'm tired holding this phone like this on bed but oh well thats the whole point of it . Its all dark in here. Ah i see stars on my ceiling! I love them! Although some had fallen lols. If it did fall, esp those large ones, i tend to get superstitious n thought that as some bad omen. Oh well whats thr not to believe pr to believe if u hav nothing else to believe or lose?alright my hands are tired…gonna really try to close my eyes method. Don wan to dozeoff during that lecture! Buhbye n nights n ignore this random post lols shud put that as title?
Ps i hate cleaning up just before bed it takes too much effort! Better go snoring!

it's just a matter of CHOICES

we live a life of choices. everyday we have to make choices in order to live. the choices can be anything, it can be as small as what would I choice for my dinner to choices that matters life or death. it's cruel but its essential. its not an easy choice, none of any choices have really been easy actually, or it wouldn't be called choices, right? there's never really been obvious choices. it's just the matter of what actually matters more to u. the path not taken, the choice not chosen, the road not taken, the future not ventured, there's bound to have some little regret or that little voice deep in ur head that says : What if, I choose that other choice from back then? will anything change? will it be a better choice? there's no way of knowing it. the only way is to continue on the path that u chose a long time ago and stop glancing back ur shoulder on the choices that u left out when u made that choice. there's no use to it. what's done been done, and will not change. until u're in the middle of another set of choices, u'll have to start that cycle of making choices, again. at this very moment, what would u do? what matters to u? what's better for u, or in the matter of fact is it always about u? what's the effect to the others that are affected by ur choice? it can come to a time when u had to make a choice for others, not u urself... remember, there's never an easy choice.
now i'm presented with a choice of my future. should I or should I not? that is the question, really. . its not just a choice that affects my future path, it affects of who i am, it represents of what i want to become. the choice, could have made me change for the rest of my life, or it could still not change me but made me a worse personality. think, think, think. think, think, think carefully. time is ticking, fast. never coming back. u don't want to regret after all that u've done. what questions should i ask myself before this choices? what matters to me more? what's affected? who's affected? am i up to it? am i capable of making that choice? what will i do if i made that choice? is it what i really want? or it's just what people expects from me? or is it just what people want me to do? be more confident! be more to urself! be more assertive! be more honest to urself! listen to what ur heart says! its a simple choice but not an easy one. no, i cant regret! don't be lazy girl! think carefully! I'm still thinking... thinking, thinking....